The rules:
Bold the statements that are true to you
Italise the statements that you WISH are true
Leave the Fibs alone
Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test.


I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch TV these days. (well I watch DVDs on teh tvz)
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana. (I also had teh chance)
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (well I dont know what the limits of plastic surgery are, I wouldnt mind being taller. but I probably wouldnt. nvm)
I need money right now.
I love sushi. 
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair. (DEPENDS ON HOW YOU LOOK AT IT)
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. (YEAH.)
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look (but .. yeah. not so much that I don't want to impr00v)
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends. (CLOSE WUNS)
I am currently single. 
I have pecked someone of the same sex. 
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone. 
I'm a pretty good dancer. 
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex. 
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
NO SOUTH PARK MOVIE HA HA HGA
I would die for my best friends. (WELL I DONT KNOW, IT REALLY DEPENDS)
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it. (well I dont WATCH it, but when I do I like it)
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I am happy at this moment!! 
I'm obsessed with guys. WITH HOW THEY DRESS AND HAIR
I study for tests most of the time. -
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. 
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who i am right now. (bKINDA)
I walk barefoot whenever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup. (I buy hairspray if that counts, but not ridiculous amounts)
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules. (SPOSE, I INEED IT)
I went college out of state.
I like sausage. (NOT PENIS) ( YEAH ) (HA HA HA DISREGARD THAT I SUCK COCKS)
I love kisses. ( WHENEVER THEY HAPPEN )
I fall for the worst people. 
I adore bright colours. 
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing. 
I usually like covers better than originals. (THIS IS MOOT, I DONT KNOW)
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle. 
I can move my tongue in waves. much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep. (rarely)
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie. 
I know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist. (YEE)
I only clean my room when necessary. -
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

WOOW, I just did this to fit in

This is a bit diffferent

The rules:
Bold the statements that are true to you
Italise the statements that you WISH are true
Leave the Fibs alone
Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test.


I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana. (Had the chance)
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. ( i cant un-italicise it)
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look (but not so much that I don't want to improve)
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single. LOL
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them. - to an extent
I'm a pretty good dancer. LOL
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I dont watch MTV on a daily basis
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex. (not so much shy as awkward)
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
NO SOUTH PARK MOVIE
I would die for my best friends. (I want to die dragging them down with me) - LOL
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex. (sortof)
I am happy at this moment!! - HES EMO GET HIMZ
I'm obsessed with guys. - yeah man
I study for tests most of the time. - nah watch out this year...pfft
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. SO FAR.j
I can work on a car. - huh?
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who i am right now. (but like I said, if I'm satisfied I won't try to improve)
I walk barefoot whenever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup. - but nothing compared to Roderick
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausage. (NOT PENIS) ( YEAH )
I love kisses. ( WHENEVER THEY HAPPEN )
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours. ( ORANGE , GREEN, PURPLE )
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing. ( BECAUSE IM ON MY WAY OF BEING SCENE )
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle. - epic fail
I can move my tongue in waves. much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.ff
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie. - it actually doesnt do ANYTHING to me. like, at all
I know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary. - pretty much
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

half the time, I had to re-write the italics cause it wouldnt let me UN-ITALICISE THEM

I wanna be scene...got my hairspray already

http://www.wikihow.com/Be-a-Scene-Kid

In case

So for the next couple days (probably not longer than the end of this week) I'm probably not gonna be online during the day coz I'll be moving furniture around and painting the house. I'll probably be online at night though, say maybe around 9 til like whenever or something. Just saying.

A Really Good Quote

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?"

- Nelson Mandela

I thought that was a REALLY good quote.

LOVE STORY IN 45 MINUTES

OH COME ON, EVERYONE ELSE HAS GOT LIKE A LOAD AND ALL I GOT WAS A PARAGRAPH.

Oliver took a deep breath as he wiped his somewhat sweaty fingers on his pants, preparing himself for what he was about to do. He was about to spill his guts to the girl he knew (or thought) meant the world to him. He was going to tell her that he couldn't stop thinking about her, that he loved being around her, that everytime he thought of her his spirits

FAIL.

Love Story in 45 Minutes

Stop and Stare.


From the chilly midst of the morning she approached, walking ambly and keeping the quiet. It was a special occasion that day, and it was immeadiately noticeable with one glance. She had reached her destination point and sat down on the bench. The bench, no one actually knew how old it was, only that it was at least 5 years old. It had been everyones gather place for the past 5 years, a collective ornament if you will of people around the bench. She studied it closely, having not had the chance ever before. The words made her chuckle, words of friends and foe, all written down on this battlefield of ownership.
He stirred
She glanced sideways quickly, unknowing of what to do. He looked more peaceful than usual, if that was possible. His hair occasionaly swayed when a breeze came through. Head resting on his arms taking in shallow breaths. She then realised that she was staring at him, and turned away suddenly, as if there were people watching. Embarrassed.
He was already awake before she had arrived, and when he caught a glimpse of her, he pretended to be asleep conveniently removing any awkwardness that might take place. It had been over 2 months since he last saw her in the flesh. Their last picture taken farr too long ago, and even though they had taken many on that day, his thoughts of her still weren’t quenched. He watched her, as if prey watching predator his eyes never left her.
Something came to him, that being that he hadn’t realised that it was her. At this time though? It has only happened once, and that wasn’t even because of him. Having no more resistance left, he broke the silience.
“Hey..” he said softly, surprising himself at the faintness of his voice.
She jumped up, startled forgetting that he was right there beside her. She turned around slowly not knowing if what she heard was real. It was so faint, it might as well have been her imagination. She waited still, her heart skipping beats, the rhythm of her breathing was all over the place. She panicked and ran off towards the toilets.
He chuckled to himself. “heheh, that’s her alright”. He sat up and rumaged through his bag checking for the things that made him miss the early bus. They were present still, and he let out a heavy sigh of relief.




Sunny Day

They walked towards their place as if they were taught to. Without suspicion from others, they both paced themselves so that it would look coincidental. Walking side by side, this finally gave him a chance, and he took it.
“Hey look !” he points at her left. She turns her head, expecting to see something and with one swift movement, her hand was suddenly with his. Her fingers instinctively snuggled through his. He smiled at her, knowing that she was just as surprised as he was. “what a move” he thought to himself.
They sat on the grass, the wind blowing against their backs sending hair into their faces. It was a perfect scene, and they both knew that. The lush and tall grass battled against the wind, only to be blown down again, “so perfect” so thought. The weather was on their side today, out of the way were the white and fluffy clouds leaving room for the sun to be seen.
“Hey…” he spoke first. It just came out, unexpectedly and he did not know what to say next. He was living a dream, his dream and hers. Their dream. Nothing else mattered during that time, all the usual thoughts left him peace and calamity. He looked sideways at her. She was still staring out into the open green. Her hair partially covering her left side. He moved his hand, poising, readying…
“uh-…th-thanks…”
He knew he screwed up. His hand was trembling as he brushed her hair away, ever so gently yet without the confidence he usually had. She looked at him now, and for that pause they stared into each others eyes. Having never been caught up in a situation like this, neither of them knew what to do and just continued staring.
“ahah!! You blinked!!” exclaimed Matt cheerfully.
“Nooooo! You did first! I saw it haha”
“Well..y-d-uhh….”
She laughed at him openly, having never heard him stutter at a line before. It was a first for her, today was a first for her. She mocked him.
“w-w-w-a—wahh hahaha”
“that’s it ! Vanessa. Im, im welll uhh” he stopped. Thought for a second and looked back at her. “gosh!” it was difficult to express in words he thought.

“yeahh?”

There was a silence of their voices and laughter. The only sounds, ambient, coming from the wind rustling the grass, trees swaying in rhythm and time.
It was their day that day.

“ I love you”

And she turned away.

White Bridge

* Two Months Earlier*


* Beep Beep Beep *
* Click *
“Urrghh….” He knew what time it was, because he had been counting down for the alarm. He knew what would follow on through and that there can’t be any turn backs
He closed his eyes and fell back, tried to imagine how the day would turn out. The morning was still pitch black, even though it was 6:05am. Winter is coming.
He opened the light and let his eyes adjust to the sudden brightness. He looked at the state of his room, half written letters lying around all over the place, envelopes with her name on them neatly stacked on his computer, clothes on his chair. “Well…I might as well get started” he thought.
That morning went smoothly, with 5 minutes to spare before he left. It was the first time in many weeks that he had time for a proper breakfast, he was content and happy, awaiting for what the day had planned for him.

***

“So…has he you yet?” asked a friend playfully.
“So its pretty cold isn’t it?!” replied Vanessa, trying to change topics. Her mind had been very conscious of him lately. She wasn’t ready for it. No matter how hard she had tried to convince herself to sleep, to stop worrying, it was of no use. It was bound to happen sooner or later.



He sat there waiting for her. It was possible after all, she came one morning whilst catching him off guard and completely bewildered. He chuckled at himself, knowing it would be too good to happen again. He decided to start the last one. The remaining envelope had to be filled.

It wasn’t too long until friends started to show up, thus relieving him of his duty and commitment. He waited for the time to pass a bit, and went up to the library. There he sat, brainstorming of what he could possibly add to it:

“Dear Vanessa….”

He sat and thought…nothing still. He was getting frustrated, and decided to leave it. He got up, departed the library and decided to go back to his friends. Waiting for him there was Rod whom which he exchanged pats and hugs with.

The rest of the day went by without too much fuss. They sat and talked while they waited for the day to pass by. The blue sky, so blue complimented the green grass and tree they were sitting at. He stared at the sky while she squirmed to find words. He chuckled to himself, as he watched her gather her thoughts. It wasn’t the most fitting, but it was something. He waited patiently, studying her hands, hands, her skin so smooth to the touch. He waited for it.
“I love you” she spoke quickly.
He instantly cuddled her and laughed with and replied with a cheeky note.
“ What a coincidence! It just so happens that I do too!” he blurted out, keeping her close.